THE NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS

It’s 2012 already and yet I have not been able to come to a conclusion as to my new year resolutions despite much contemplation for the last 48 hours .The problem is that I don’t know what to stop and to start ‘ what’. What is it that is harmful for me and what’s it that is good for me. I am getting confused.

Take for example my habit of addiction [can addiction be a habit!].Through out my life I have been be an addict .Right from birth itself I had been addicted to LOVE from my close ones. When I moved away from Kollam ,I had withdrawal symptoms and took up STUDIES as my next addiction .When I had to leave up that one at Kottayam ,then the real game started ,the CHEMICAL addiction was not that far away .Starting with nicotine it bifurcated to ch3ch2 oh to cannabis ,flowering to opiates and other drugs that god only knows. Later love again took over and one by one these chemicals gave way to the worst ones –MONEY and CAREER , not to leave behind STATUS ,and as usual when the saturation point comes ,when the real slave in you , rebels ,you have to stop , only to begin the next inevitable one. Now I am being sustained by two ,- no! -- , three which I am able to identify-1. Nicotine 2. Caffeine 3. Ponni.

Coming to my caffeine case, I have no hesitation in proclaiming that the best or almost nearest to perfect GET-TOGETHER described by one and all as the super duper hit to thin audiences, lost its sheen to me, by terrible withdrawal symptoms and the absence of any chaayakkada in the vicinity contributed to acute anxiety disorder ,which culminated in my utter batting collapse in the field and near total banning by manimama from playing cards[56] altogether. I had begun hallucinating to the extent that everything seemed so perfect ,competitive and planned to evoke a yawn from me.,-pure caffeine withdrawal--- no it’s high time to stop caffeine. So , no 1 resolution . Stop all addictions and release ponni.

2. to stop criticizing and start enjoying the mistakes ,blunders ,the one upmanships

3. to blend with the crowd and to start dancing to the music ,but not the thandava style

4. to start reading books and see real cinemas.

5. to start attending nischayatharthams and marriages and to show the other cheek and back , for getting beaten black and blue.

6. to seek the self and god within , if at all there is one.

7. to write—write—write and make enemies at the earliest.

8. to desist from cricket especially Indian cricket ,mega serials ,all news channels ,all reality shows and watch only sankara t.v and ftv , since only these two channels are free from any sort of eroticism .

9. to start loving my wife and kids and not my neighbour’s.

10.Not but the least, to break all the new year resolutions at the earliest ,and to be in PEACE with the egoistic SELF within and allow the LIFE to flow all around with the least RESISTENCE.