THE DREAM

Its already 23.21 , 2’nd of march, 2010 ,time to bed,no? But this has been going on for the last 57 yrs without break,more often from 1992 August when Sankar started his 1’st std and Shyam his vi’th std,and he was back from malappuram after a 4 yr stint in manjeri hospital.Why harp in those dark past 19yrs back, now when he is in the peak of his middle yrs a step away to the golden old age,he has retired gracefully his two sons have started their careers,by god’s grace he had a decent pension to eat,his wife has already started reading narayaneeyam and glued on to sankara t.v.what else can you aspire for,now that sachin has also scored his double century in one day cricket.

But he was aware that he was restless for some unknown reasons or reasons he never wanted others to know,yes the latter seemed to be more of an answer.He was afraid of the society,its norms its taboos,its rights and wrongs.Even though he very well knew not to bow before it as he had done all in his youth,he had to compromise or was cut to size in his youth and the best way to cage him was by pushing him to the age old prison of the society, the institution of ultimate bondage, the Marriage.Though he rebelled initially to free himself, he could not swim against the current and was slowly and steadily drawn or sucked to the bottom.

.Now he need not run around earning money or hanker after power,no need to bother after his childrens education or for their employment or their marriage[now it is his turn to drag them to bondage] Now he can live the way he always wanted to.But can he ? No way, the society won’t let him. He is expected to lead his life as a retiree,he had to wake up ,go for a walk 40 minutes ? and fetch milk better with his dog,return ,after bath and all, had to have a session with god either manthras,thanthras or yogas,then after reading the newspaper including the obituaries,he can either watch the mega serials with a nap once in a while,take his 20 tablets and he can have his food sans spices,sugar,salt the limited diet. The only liberties for him , playing with his grandchildren or going to temple and reciting sahasranamams or a pilgrimage once in a while.,nothing more ,nothing less. Is it the way to LIVE ,no it is only endurance or existence at its worst.

But is there another way to live?. May be yes,maybe no.He can never vouch for a better way of life ,but he can try to live the way he thinks he wants to. Or enjoy.He can always give it a try you know.,.But the real problem is he has no idea what to do,but one thing he knows is’ this is not the way he wants tolive’. So he can experiment,after all it is his life,no?,he is not accountable to anyone,not at this point of time,he is totally free from all his relationships and society around him. For that, first he has to divorce his wife and children first and friends and relations and the neighbourhood., next. Coming to the point he will have to disappear from his abode and start afresh in a far of land where no body knows his antecedents and precedents. Nobody to control or advise,or order him around. Nobody to love or hate or relate to. He can be truly independent. Then he can stand on his head,sleep around till noon with anybody,eat anything he wants,don’t bother to brush or bath unless he wants to, booze around with nobody to answer,inshort to do away with the systematic life and meet life as it happens like a feather in a wind slowly drifting up and down and flowing with least resistence,.,until you reach the ocean..

If you don’t like,offcourse you can return and start reading narayaneeyam again,no? Atleast you have given it a TRY. You can die in peace.