THE ANGEL FROM ANDHRA

ANGEL FROM ANDHRA
Oh dear ,my dear, I don’t even have the courage as to how to address YOU. Oh ,what a loss !.I am doomed with andwith out you.! .How dare you vanish from my life all of a sudden after all these 25years?.You never even gave me a hint ,not even the customary 1 month’s notice.You know,you only could know how much I will suffer with out you at my arms length.Oh dear ,what wrong have I done other than being totally dependent on you.You all along knew that I cannot survive you even for one hour ,’then why did you punish me ,how the hell could you do this to me? If some body asks ,you may even point the finger at me and say it was I who kicked you out once for all,but no sane person will ever believe you since they know how much I loveyou . MADE FOR EACH OTHER,they may say.Ofcourse we both have our own weaknesses to the extent of inflicting injuries each other mentally and physically,but we complement each other,don’t we?.You have even become a sort of conditioned reflex to me in the sense that I don’t have a separate existence without you ,but you , yourself need not be in mypredicament since so many people I know are fond ofyou and are waiting for you in queues . You are still dancing in front of me.You are so thin and white as a moon,so deliciously packed andyour smell is so sweet,atleast to me,especially when ignited with the flame of love.Then you light up and dissolve me in the smoke and you surge through my veins intoxicating me and all my senses triggered off and I embrace you and the fire in me burns you to ashes and you take innumerable rebirths and lights up my life again and again.No , without you , my lips tremble and vertigo washes over me and I cannot dream of eating,drinking or even shitting, leave alone reading even a newspaper,.You are my only thought day in and out and even in my dreams,I feel even hell will be heaven if only you are with me. To be frank with you, after you came into mylife,first my kith and kin, even my close friendswarned me against you[they were so jealous of me],all sorts of rumours and gossips were triggered against you portraying you as a witch, hell bent on destroying me But I never heeded to them since I knew you better than them. But when the chest pains started it was the cardiologist who asked me to quit you lest I die and I stopped SMOKING and it was worse than DYING ,it wasPURE HELL. I just miss you madly , my angel .!